self harm/self injury

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i used a nail-clipper this time, i cut off two bits of my skin... i could see the white underneath, and how the blood crept into the cut, dyeing it red. it was ugly, it peeled, scabbed, browned, but yet didn't leave a scar.. it was probably the most disappointing part.

when i did it in the past it scarred nicely, even if i didn't clip off the skin entirely. i wish i had a razor blade or box-cutter... something better.